Merry Christmas, And All That

December 26, 2009

So yeah, Merry Christmas. And I do mean that. I’ve been kind of disgusted with myself lately because I haven’t had time to keep up with this blog, or write. I have way too much on my plate but WOW, am I ever grateful for it. I am not complaining at all. I was thinking about all the things I’ve been doing lately and while it seems a little much or overwhelming I am certainly grateful to be busy and healthy.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas. You know, there are some out there who didn’t have a great Christmas and whoever they are, they are in my thoughts and prayers. If I could quit my job and become a full time philanthropist I would. So would you. I know you would. It breaks my heart to think of others suffering. Really suffering. And knowing there isn’t a damn thing I can do about it, giving no permanent change anyway. I don’t know what to do for them so I do nothing. Hell, I don’t even know who “they” are. Still, it doesn’t stop my thoughts and wondering and knowing there are people out there who are having a rough time of it. It could be anything too – homeless, hungry, family members in hospital, fighting a war and away from home, disease and illness …..

WOW. Sorry, didn’t mean to go down that path. Let me backtrack and start over.

You know, now that Christmas is over the New Year is right around the corner. That means resolutions. Not for me though, I don’t do resolutions on December 31. But others do and will. I fully expect to see way more people up in the gym on Monday, January 4th. It happened last year and for whatever reason I was struck with unexpected consternation. Really, I wasn’t expecting it, I swear there were at least 30 new people (just in the morning hours) at the gym this past January 2009. This year I am more prepared for the flood of resolution-makers. Having said that, it will die down and things will be back to normal sometime in February.

As far as seeing all the new people at the gym, that will be the only change I see in the New Year; when it comes to others anyway.

Myself? I do hope to have a new and better attitude in 2010. There are other things I wish for 2010 but I can’t write about them here. But mainly it is within myself that I hope to change and adjust for the New Year. I have to learn how to NOT react to my outside circumstance. That the outside doesn’t have anything to do with the inside, ya know?

OH!!! Guess what?! My half marathon is fast approaching. SIX MORE WEEKS and I’m nervous as heck. Go read about it HERE.

Anyway, I’ve rambled on enough. Thanks for reading and have a great day. Thanks for letting me think out loud.

Who is c.a. Marks you ask?  This is me. I haven't thought up a clever enough "byline" yet to post here. Maybe I'll run a survey.

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